I’ve been gone for too long. Dear Stranger Forgive me, for I have been gone, I have been silent for too long. I have no excuse. I’ve just been gone. Much has happened since I opened my mind last. I finished High School. Best day of my life, so far anyway =] High School had many ups, and even more down, but that’s school for you, I guess. But not for one second would I want to go back in time and change anything. Everything that happened, good and bad, happened for a reason, and if it hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I wouldn’t have the friends I have and I would never be as emotionally strong or as confident as I am today. As cliché as it is, it’s true. Instead of studying this year, I’m working, as a pre-school teacher’s assistant. It’s wonderful. There’s never a dull moment when you work with 4-6yr old kids. I’m apparently very firm with them, but they still happy to see me so I don’t think I’m doing such a bad job. It’s kinda late now so I should get going. I promise to not be such a stranger myself anymore.

I’ve been gone for too long.

Dear Stranger Forgive me, for I have been gone, I have been silent for too long. I have no excuse. I’ve just been gone. Much has happened since I opened my mind last. I finished High School. Best day of my life, so far anyway =] High School had many ups, and even more down, but that’s school for you, I guess. But not for one second would I want to go back in time and change anything. Everything that happened, good and bad, happened for a reason, and if it hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I wouldn’t have the friends I have and I would never be as emotionally strong or as confident as I am today. As cliché as it is, it’s true. Instead of studying this year, I’m working, as a pre-school teacher’s assistant. It’s wonderful. There’s never a dull moment when you work with 4-6yr old kids. I’m apparently very firm with them, but they still happy to see me so I don’t think I’m doing such a bad job. It’s kinda late now so I should get going. I promise to not be such a stranger myself anymore.

Did I grow up according to plan? The Simple answer to the title is no. My parents wanted a quiet, happy, Christian daughter who would grow up, get good grades in school, go on to study and get a job then marry a Christian man and have Christian kid. I randomly burst into song in public. I hide my depression (I should become an actress. No one knows that I cry myself to sleep most nights or that I still cut even after my parents found out and chose to ignore it.) I’m not religious. I get just above average marks at school. I have no clue what I want to study yet. I don’t plan on getting married and I will probably never have children, not because I don’t like them, ‘cos I do, I just don’t want any of my own.  I have/ had another tumblr account. That one is happy and colourful and kinda insane, but that’s only me on my really good days. The reason I started the blog in the first place was so that I could have a place where I could be ME and say what’s really on my mind. Not just say and post things that other people would like. That’s why I stopped using it. Because I’m not that happy girl that I pretended to be.  So this will be the real me. I will share every gruesome detail of my life. All the bad and whatever good there is. I will tell you things that majority of the people in my life will never know about me and I will share all my thoughts, whether they are of suicide or of love. You will know the real me, but my real wish is that I will know the real me once more. 

Did I grow up according to plan?

The Simple answer to the title is no.

My parents wanted a quiet, happy, Christian daughter who would grow up, get good grades in school, go on to study and get a job then marry a Christian man and have Christian kid.

I randomly burst into song in public. I hide my depression (I should become an actress. No one knows that I cry myself to sleep most nights or that I still cut even after my parents found out and chose to ignore it.) I’m not religious. I get just above average marks at school. I have no clue what I want to study yet. I don’t plan on getting married and I will probably never have children, not because I don’t like them, ‘cos I do, I just don’t want any of my own. 

I have/ had another tumblr account. That one is happy and colourful and kinda insane, but that’s only me on my really good days. The reason I started the blog in the first place was so that I could have a place where I could be ME and say what’s really on my mind. Not just say and post things that other people would like. That’s why I stopped using it. Because I’m not that happy girl that I pretended to be. 

So this will be the real me. I will share every gruesome detail of my life. All the bad and whatever good there is. I will tell you things that majority of the people in my life will never know about me and I will share all my thoughts, whether they are of suicide or of love.

You will know the real me, but my real wish is that I will know the real me once more. 

Dear Mr.Night. I have not been myself lately. Some unwelcome visitors have entered my soul and from the look of things, these haunting guests wont be leaving soon. So, till such a time as I am my happy self again I’m going to leave you. Try not to miss me too much ;) 

Dear Mr.Night.

I have not been myself lately. Some unwelcome visitors have entered my soul and from the look of things, these haunting guests wont be leaving soon. So, till such a time as I am my happy self again I’m going to leave you. Try not to miss me too much ;) 

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